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As I walk on to the site, everything stops. Like a Mexican wave in reverse, the guys lower their tools, conversation tails off and the only sound is of my awful steel-capped toes clunking along the ground. There鈥檚 a mixture of eyebrow raising, cheeky winks and low whistles and then some manly nods and encouraging smiles. It鈥檚 not until I am a few metres on, that I hear: 鈥淢mm, nice arse.鈥�

So far, so much as I expected. I鈥檓 spending a day working on a building site to find out if there is any truth in Ray O鈥橰ourke鈥檚 infamous speech at the British Council for Offices conference in May. In case you missed it, and the resulting two month long deluge of angry letters, the Laing O鈥橰ourke chairman informed his audience that a building site was 鈥渘ot a place where women fit鈥�.

Thanks to the consent of a game chief executive, who must remain nameless, I鈥檓 posing as a graduate doing work experience on a large-scale refit job over eight floors of a central London office block 鈥� there are only seven women working with 200 men. I am wearing the full gear 鈥� safety hat, high-vis vest, ill-fitting jeans and steel-capped boots. As I am led towards the hoist that will take me up to the fifth floor 鈥� my office for the day 鈥� I try to ignore the comments, which are, by now, coming thick and fast: 鈥淚 bet you鈥檙e a real Essex girl slag, incha love?鈥�

When I see the hoist, I forget all of the bad language in an instant. It鈥檚 a rickety red cage running up and down the outside of the building. It looks terrifying, but I pack myself in with the others for the hot, sweaty ascent. When I get to where I鈥檒l be spending the day pulling up flooring, it鈥檚 a bit more welcoming. The guys are generally helpful and polite 鈥� almost too polite: 鈥淯m, alright Em, love, would it be okay if you just took up, or um lifted that bit of that flooring for us? No rush though, take your time. Um thanks, thanks a lot. That鈥檇 be great if you are okay to do that. Are you? Okay? Any problems, you know where to come.鈥�

After about an hour, every muscle is aching and I feel physically sick from the exertion. Even the more female-friendly tasks I鈥檓 given, like pulling down plastic sheeting, sweeping, moving wooden walkways, and gaffer-taping wires and loose carpet to the floor are exhausting and my hands are rubbed raw through my gloves.

Some of the men say that despite women鈥檚 relative physical weakness we are useful to have around 鈥� not just for a bit of eye candy, but because we are generally better at paying attention to detail. But if you can鈥檛 lift the materials, you become more of a hindrance than a help 鈥� just like I have. By 1pm, I鈥檓 saying: 鈥淓xcuse me, can you lift this for me?鈥� for the 100th time and the smiles and understanding sighs are turning to eye-rolling and tutting.

While we work, the conversation is about as blokey as I鈥檇 expect. Football, drinking, and women are the three staple topics and I wander off to lunch with, 鈥淚鈥檇 definitely do the Welsh one from Big Brother but that blonde bitch can fuck right off鈥�, still in my ears. But when I bump into one of my workmates outside Tesco I鈥檓 surprised by the change in tone. We sit down to eat and in five minutes I know all about the past 15 years of his life. I guess he鈥檚 in his late 40s, and he starts talking about his past loves and losses, heartbreaks and regrets. He tells me that he thinks anybody will love him again. After we鈥檝e talked for half an hour he says he feels better about things, and as we walk back to site his relief is clear 鈥� an example of how an all-male environment can get too much even for the men themselves.

Back on the site, and by about 3pm people are drifting about a bit more, so I take the opportunity to seek out some of the site鈥檚 few women for a chat. They say you hardly ever find female labourers on site. 鈥淚 know it鈥檚 controversial to say it, but a building site really isn鈥檛 a place for a girl if she鈥檚 going to want to be shifting things and labouring,鈥� says Laura, a 33-year-old Pole who runs her own industrial cleaning company. 鈥淎part from the physical strength, the only other thing about working on site is all the men. But either you cope with that or you don鈥檛. It takes a certain woman. I don鈥檛 mind. The men don鈥檛 get silly or gossip or bitch. They just get on and have a laugh. I like that.鈥�

Jules used to be a hairdresser but has been working with her husband putting up solar protection panels on windows for 10 years. 鈥淕oing on site as a woman you鈥檙e always going to get the stares and the odd comment but how is that different from walking along the street these days? You can鈥檛 come onto site and be someone who fades into the background. As a woman you鈥檝e got to have balls and give it all back a bit. You鈥檝e also got to ignore the language.鈥�

The female toilets are nothing special but they are clean. 鈥淭hey only put those toilets up a couple of weeks ago because I kicked up a fuss,鈥� says one women. 鈥淭hey were good about it but it was ridiculous. We had to find a restaurant or pub before then.鈥�

I spend the rest of the afternoon trying to dodge the hard labour, and, when my day finally draws to a close, I am relieved. Rude comments and staring aside, the boys tried their best but as I head for home I feel disheartened.

The on-site manager had told me that I was the first female labourer he鈥檇 seen in 20 years. There must be a reason why it is such a rarity. After my own experience I鈥檇 say that, as a woman, to take on what is considered to be a man鈥檚 job you鈥檝e got to do it well. If you can鈥檛, like me, you won鈥檛 make many friends 鈥� and that鈥檚 not a working environment anyone would feel happy in.

For me, the work was just too hard. My inability to do a good job also rubbed the guys up the wrong way so I felt left out. It didn鈥檛 help that their supervisor could see that I wasn鈥檛 coping and so kept barking orders at them: 鈥淕et Em some gloves for God鈥檚 sake, she鈥檒l hurt herself. Will you lift that for her? She鈥檚 struggling over there. You come and finish this, Emily needs a time out.鈥� To be honest, even I began to hate me. And, once the novelty had worn off, the men were much happier getting on with their work and pretending I wasn鈥檛 there.

But their reaction to the skilled women 鈥� the electrician and the decorators 鈥� was different. Although they got the same kind of ribbing as I did, the men respected them. 鈥淭hey鈥檙e trained at something they are good at,鈥� said one. 鈥淭hey fit in because they just get on with it and blend in. They probably do the job better than us.鈥� See, respect. 鈥淎nd when they bend over we get to see what underwear they鈥檙e wearing.鈥� Well, close enough.

It鈥檚 only when I鈥檓 on the bus that I discover a sense of on-site camaraderie 鈥� in a fellow passenger, a huge black man who helps me up as I trip over in my ridiculous shoes. 鈥淵ou want to be slowing down before you hurt yourself,鈥� he says. 鈥淚 know what your day鈥檚 been like. It鈥檚 hard. I was on at seven and I feel for you, I do.鈥� I suddenly realise that he鈥檚 noticed my screwed-up high-vis vest, and that he鈥檚 holding one too. 鈥淭he worst thing about it is that before you know it you鈥檙e up at six and doing it all over again,鈥� he laughs. And I think to myself, 鈥渘o way鈥�.